It's a hard time of the year for me, my birthday is coming up and I like to downplay the day as much as I can. But it reminds me that 4 years ago my mother died 4 days after my birthday. It's always a time of reflection.What do I want out of life. What things are important to me. Do I have goals anymore?
Funny how the things I wanted out of life in my 20's are not even close to things I want now. My mother's death forever changed me as a person. I saw her worry her whole life about "making it" to retirement and saving to have enough to live on and then when she retired, she died the next year of complications from knee surgery.
Life is a journey and the only judge of it's success is ultimately you and God. How many "great" people who have done so called great "deeds" were in real life miserable? I'll bet more than we know.
My great deeds are my children. My greatest successes are the times and the people in my life that have given me peace of mind. I love when I come across people who can teach me how to glide through life.
At this point in the game I just value peace, seek sanity, and want to believe in the power of kindness and to find beauty in my day to day life. I want to be appreciative of my life and to grow to be more and more selfless.
I have a great destiny, I've known it since childhood. It is my dream to spend the last years of my life being the simple caretaker of a flower garden.
I will measure my success, bloom by bloom.
Watercolor by Kathy Sharpe
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